Hey There Hayden

Where's my motivation??? I don't write, I don't sleep, I skip meals, I don't do homework and I don't study. I'm supposed to be studying now, but I got distracted with all of my distractions. If that makes sense, then you're probably like me. You try and try and try to make something out of the glop that is your life, but you can't. It's not solid enough to form into anything and the moment you finally get it to stand up higher, it comes right back down. And you don't know what to put in to fix it, but you try everything. Spoiler alert: Nothing works. Motivation? Gone. Discipline? Nope. Standards? Not even close. Reinforcements? Not that either. I have tried a multitude of different things, yet it doesn't help. Will I always be a good for nothing blob? Where is my will to do good. Where is my will to press on?? Can you tell me cause I really want it. I need it.

2 more years until I crack 2 more years until I refuse to come back There's only so much I can take every night There's only so much till' I need to fight Every comment and remark Every time and place portrays her as a shark she has left a scar I trace a long line of attacks all so perfectly aligned that my soul cracks and hope I shall find no matter how long little pieces left behind it's not all gone 2 more years then I'll finally begin 2 more years stick that date on a pin I'm just waiting to be me I'm just waiting to be free Thanks so much for reading and I'm sorry that I haven't been posting. I am back now and ready to go though and I'm excited!