Hey There Hayden

Though it is a bit cloudy and humid and sticky, we must move on. we will move forward. We have soaked in the pain that life poured on us, but that pain is gone for now so we may continue on with more ease. The road ahead of us is still wet so caution must always be in our minds but we have no choice but to go forward. The bitter air is like life's disappointments that lurk around me and you and you and you too. We always feel the bitterness when inhaling. Oh well. We are still slaves to this miserable road. The stupid road is hated by many but not all. Some see that even though it's drab and depressing...it's also beautiful. Even if the conditions of this shitty journey suck, I gotta admit that it has a charm to it. Maybe that why I haven't run deep into the woods yet. Maybe that's why I've stayed on this road for so long and will continue to do so.

Some of you may know about the entire "13 Reasons why" controversy about people getting triggered by the more...graphic scenes. I saw the first season and I paid for it by my depression being super triggered. I remember watching that last episode and feeling so heavy on the inside. The show literally weighed me down for a solid month but I didn't tell anyone because it felt so silly to be so upset over a show. A good show, I might add. As a guy who deals with  depression and suicidal thoughts, I can't believe I thought it was a good idea to watch that damn show. I even attempted suicide and when I saw Hannah in that tub, just sitting there trying to follow through it brought me right back to when I tried the same thing. Then she slices her skin and the blood comes out and I remember how I dreamed of that for a super long time. Sometimes I still do. Knowing this, you'd probably tell me to stay away from season 2. I told myself the same thing. I watched it anyways. ...